fear

Fear is
what I have everyday
when I wake up
and look
out the window
to hear the morning chaos
I expect
it to be a continuation
of what happened yesterday
and don’t feel I can let go
of it
yesterday
is my today
everyday
I don’t know how to be
create me
outside of what others
have done
or said to me
I don’t know how
to say things to myself
to remember myself
in every moment
enough to be so present
to laugh at what I like
and smile
when something makes me feel good
I’m always thinking
I might be wrong
someone might disagree
with how I see me
I see me
in my dreams
I’m stronger there
only there
can I imagine
that
something else
extraordinary could happen
to me
even though I don’t deserve it
work for it
push
your fear
out the window
after you open it
and don’t look and wonder
what will happen out there
wonder what will happen
in here
push

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