Ghostwriter

What does it mean

to be a ghost

writer

does it mean you are a ghost

who writes

or a writer

who talks

about ghosts

or a writer who writes

on behalf of the ghost

population

or does it mean

the words disappear

from the page

as soon as

they’re written

only for you

to wonder what was

there

something you can feel

but not see

something you know happened

but you don’t know who made

that thing happen

or

why

they could not just show their face

say their name

celebrate themselves on the page

too

with their words

perhaps a ghost writer is

a medium

and the ‘real’ writer

is not really real

it’s just someone the ghostwriter

imagined

up

channeled

from another

life

of their own

because they were

too afraid

to say

‘I wrote this book’

this was my life before

and I want it to be

no more

Resilience to Fear

There is a look that certain people have

a resilience behind a fear

it’s like those people imagined

that it just had to be

this way or that

But, then it wasn’t

and the question became

when will it be that way

instead of

will it be that way

this created the resilience behind the fear

instead of the fear behind the resilience.

some people want to believe

in things they have never

seen

or things they have seen

others

do

or

others

have

they assume

they will have

and do

those things

too

But, thinking is different than doing

and the people who have

do

or are

given

the people who do

do

or they discover

If you’re looking around

wondering

waiting

when will someone give, do, or discover for you

well then the question

in any event

becomes

when will your resilience

come out from behind your fear

to the front

of your imagination

you want to believe

but you don’t believe enough

to actually get down

on your knees

and scratch the dirt

up under your finger nails

so you’re sitting there

looking like

a paralyzed

genius

in waiting

and everyone sees it

but no one understands

what you’re waiting

for

time and ageless

Time and ageless things

Are happenings

that illuminate the soul

beyond a thought

or a memory

freedom rings in various places

none all too well-known

fighting for a sunlight

a sunbeam

a second horizon

a coming of the dawn

which looked like the coming of a night

thunder begins to strike

and confuse the beautiful

haze

in the distance

it seemed fair

that it would always be there

but then the day got up close

and showed

itself for what

it really is

time and ageless

but here

and gone

forever

This is a Warrant

This is not a poem

This is a manifesto

A treaty

A mantra

Pass go

Collect $200

Do not go to jail

This is a warrant

for your success

Freeze frame and walk through

unfettered

unbothered

unconcerned

Now, you understand what it really means

to get to the finish line

means to knock everyone out of your way

Sauté

Dodge

Flip

Scramble

Hide

Climb

Smile

when you really want to

explode

implode

ingress

and egress

be done with it all

don’t miss the point

it’s supposed to be like this

and how can you know

who you are

unless you win

Your Thought Never Happened

My manifestations of genuine

feeling

betray me

I say things

I later

regret

but

it’s that life you’re in

no such thing as thick or thin

no such thing as high or low

go slow

it’s gone and you never imagined

it would be

other than

what you did

what you said

what you saw

what you remembered

what it was

a regret is just a memory

poorly imagined

it’s gone

so forget it

or

remember it

as if you couldn’t remember it

because you know

you can’t

do

what you never did