Resilience to Fear

There is a look that certain people have

a resilience behind a fear

it’s like those people imagined

that it just had to be

this way or that

But, then it wasn’t

and the question became

when will it be that way

instead of

will it be that way

this created the resilience behind the fear

instead of the fear behind the resilience.

some people want to believe

in things they have never

seen

or things they have seen

others

do

or

others

have

they assume

they will have

and do

those things

too

But, thinking is different than doing

and the people who have

do

or are

given

the people who do

do

or they discover

If you’re looking around

wondering

waiting

when will someone give, do, or discover for you

well then the question

in any event

becomes

when will your resilience

come out from behind your fear

to the front

of your imagination

you want to believe

but you don’t believe enough

to actually get down

on your knees

and scratch the dirt

up under your finger nails

so you’re sitting there

looking like

a paralyzed

genius

in waiting

and everyone sees it

but no one understands

what you’re waiting

for

time and ageless

Time and ageless things

Are happenings

that illuminate the soul

beyond a thought

or a memory

freedom rings in various places

none all too well-known

fighting for a sunlight

a sunbeam

a second horizon

a coming of the dawn

which looked like the coming of a night

thunder begins to strike

and confuse the beautiful

haze

in the distance

it seemed fair

that it would always be there

but then the day got up close

and showed

itself for what

it really is

time and ageless

but here

and gone

forever

This is a Warrant

This is not a poem

This is a manifesto

A treaty

A mantra

Pass go

Collect $200

Do not go to jail

This is a warrant

for your success

Freeze frame and walk through

unfettered

unbothered

unconcerned

Now, you understand what it really means

to get to the finish line

means to knock everyone out of your way

Sauté

Dodge

Flip

Scramble

Hide

Climb

Smile

when you really want to

explode

implode

ingress

and egress

be done with it all

don’t miss the point

it’s supposed to be like this

and how can you know

who you are

unless you win

Your Thought Never Happened

My manifestations of genuine

feeling

betray me

I say things

I later

regret

but

it’s that life you’re in

no such thing as thick or thin

no such thing as high or low

go slow

it’s gone and you never imagined

it would be

other than

what you did

what you said

what you saw

what you remembered

what it was

a regret is just a memory

poorly imagined

it’s gone

so forget it

or

remember it

as if you couldn’t remember it

because you know

you can’t

do

what you never did

Poetry of Addictions

Feeling you have nothing

to lose because

you feel

you have

nothing

and

anything could be

better

than the nothingness

you feel

too bad to be real

realize that

when loving yourself

conflicts

with wanting to be

loved

or feeling lovely

you sit in seats

and take rides

partying with strangers

who

only know you

as well as you know yourself

in sickness

not in health

wealth is not inside your mind

but your soul

it cannot be fabricated

nor generated

by the perfect thought

or bought and sold

wealth is not bold

it’s calm

indifference feeling

secure

when nothing around you is

not trying to make the outside in

but putting the inside out

without

question

or

performance

wanting to be loved

cannot be

in conflict with

loving yourself